Tamsin Blaxter
autogynephile
wht kynd ofv an dame wld knowin delve
so deepe as þis
wht kynd ofv an maide wld
wht beast wld graven—
þ mounds lye in mi wake like as pimples aftr th razor!
like th dimpling round an old church hir
once-congregacioun hir igatherung-undr-erthe
wht kynd ofv an maide wht beaste obliquite...
i ask u
do i slaunder th word womman in
restoring this bodi so? ȝif i impe this tung in2 a wommans mouthe
does tht make me fickle?—
meanild grucchild jangleresse rikelot
doude leiȝster conciounatrix —ȝif
i plaunt seeds jn this white feeld—
slutte strumpet callot wicch slovenin—
i come bk t myselfe after a spel, liv
upon ground a while, look
about me.
dyd i rejoisen this
graveyard ~ cimatorie ofv want/ desyre
sum parfit desire / desire t noht b empti ofv desire—
kynd-ofv-a-girl givs birthe
to boxen, dsnt norish thm at all.
im sayin
wht harvist cn u xpect frm grinded whyte bone, no fecound erth
has this shape/ cunte-betten boi, unwomanli, domb ~ this ys
how 2 plaunt a seede & make a bodi nvr milche ~ this ys how t
plaunt a seede & nvr ispeden
watchful eiȝes\ wet thighes\ schame shame bear
th word defouler & nvr Open a mouthe ~ im sayin
ths is how 2 plaunt a seede &
make a bodiȝ voide
magpies
Ut th windd-eye
ofv hire whiit van
twa menn pointin
2 me + þei calle
hwat IS þt!! swa i gange
mi fet fulld w/luft anlong
Queens Rd + hi laughe
so hire van is fulld w/
swch merremēte + o tis
an joie 2c!!
+ Nauȝt les ive
no andswer 2 hem.
WHT ys ths
ystraunge kropp
+ roinishe
~ hva er dens mål
her i livet? Is a trans
corps 2b cropped
fra yr raized beddes f
ur scrment
+ sche filleð u up
+ sches hollw&nourising
as an grinny pump
kin? is an trans
bodig 4 makin
porcellana so trans
sparent i solskinn
u saie ive nvr seen
an womman so parfict
as glass! ! —cue
4 me 2cover
fjeset mitt do we
bth kno th lie
4 wht it is?
is a trans legeme
i n h a b i t e d, imean,
i gost ths flæsh~wish
ud ta meg i handa
or þt ud ta meg med
handa di but ever
as an alyon, like
þt hus in grubbi pink
aforn-yen mi windeeie
sche wishes
4 anew coat ofv paint
+ sche standt inn th
autumnpe
+ hir bodig nis noxt
hiren selfe.
YIET I can nt remembren lasnight.
YIET inne mi garden i countid seoven magge piȝe.
YIET i can nt iminden me juli ofv 1989 th whitherin ofv th grassis.
YIET seurelie an wommxn like suerelie ani humxn cld minnen evri past gieresgieve.
asc\grow
awakin in th pool of dusk + yes maintaines th ambiguitie: drinke
2 try t drive th dark away or drinke
2 drive away in2 th dark ~ thees
are nt mutuallie xclusiv choises / trye
to xist @ th base ofv your skulle,
wher braine-meats-spine,
hatchin beensproute-egg, this
ys where t feel th live ofv declivety
, this
ys how 4to grow an iw tre
yn a fizzie bodie
yn a palid glebe, yn th erþ utside my window
yn an ugly mess ~ tresses-ofv-hair as Cartographie,
~ endliss dis-coverie ofv hawk & loom
that is
, this
ys how 4to grow an yew tre
yn an bodie-lookin-down
yn an homewarde walk undr streetlampes +
so knouwin th cluttery-mirror ofv th ribs, wrappin th cendal stricte round
th budes-ofv-brestes,
asc is bein hot 4 urself th same thing as bein
feared ofv evri passin man
asc is wakin up alweys th same as
puttin a hole in a pair of tights/
yn body built ofv earth, i mean,
asc ys ther any waye tb sure of stayin
constante
to being drought or spring